I, who can't count all the stars in the sky
who can only see with the abilities given to me
I do not see but a ring,
but a conection
an invisible bind between two people
unknownly perhaps to themselves.
Knowing this, I hesitate
and my mind clouds up
in raging grey winds of uncertainty.
I walk
but I grieve
of all that is lost and will be
I look up to scream
but only my soul does
until no tear can no longer be shed from my eyes anymore.
Alive I may be
but tearing inside
layer by layer
splits to pieces
that will take time to rehabilitate.
By that, I stand
growing stronger against my will
building what it is to be me,
for t
Feels like going back to square one
I guess it is the place
to just sit and watch
until it is my time to shine at all.
To remain speechless
as time goes through
A lonewolf in shape of a tune
passing through growth
and life.
In front of the blind
no self pity
rely on strength
Don't fall to sorrow
Don't rest in your own injustice.
Prey for stopping the weakness
Pry to build the stronger
Reach to be enlightened
Goal to grow higher.
Betrayal is not sweet
Is not sour
It's flavorless
An indecent action
That tears apart not just one person but two
Betrayal is not easy
Nor hard
But it kills you
It hunts you
Be careful what you wish for
It might cost you, yourself.
The things I see
Where my mind wonders
And how I reflect on them
They are my own wonder world
All lost in their own dilemma
Going back and forth
Searching, analyzing, deciding
They hunt down every thought
That's just what they do.
The things I sense
The ones I feel
Lead by intuition
Hung by the things that stand in the way
Trying to understand them
As to why they're there and their own estimated reason
To why everything happens
And where does it lead
Just stand on your own feet
Because there might not be someone to take your fall
But just wait on them
That person will arrive
So you can finally fall and rest
But might I
I catch a glimpse of desire
That tingles my every move
Yet brings chills down my spine
It scares me to even think
Because I already know the aftermath
Yet I stand near
Waiting on reality to hit me
Back into the position I must stand on my own
I will starve
I will stumble
But I will stand greater than ever
Wiser, stronger and defiant
I will grab back my life.
Treason of a heart
why break my fort of defense
even if unhealthy
the one my subconscious took long enough to create
even though you, yourself, leave untamed
yet you open an escape
way too quickly
What are you plotting to achieve?
Wondrous heart
why of all times, now
why of all men, him.
Capricious heart
you do as you wish
yet you listen
leading everything towards disaster
indeed a mind of your own.
By me
like waves in the morning light
rays of sunlight passing through my scales
and dry my lips
whom still remember.
Sketching by far a memory
yet imaginary
a new setting
a new feel
they reach Heaven.
Unmoved by the wind,
then carved a sin
waiting for the moon to uncover
cool the wounded
and heal the heart.
What will I achieve
Going out there
What do I believe I will find,
In what way will that help me
What am I expecting?
For something far beyond my reach
Just sitting beside a slight light
That goes on and off
Waiting for that entire feeling
When lighting hits the ground
And just afterwards you hear the thunder.
What am I setting sights on
What will I see,
What will I find,
If I looked carefully
In my little undying fantasy of faith.
At the end of the day
I make a hole in my bed
with no one near me
with no one to listen
there's no exceptions.
At the end of the day
sometimes unaware
a lone wolf
forsaken by four walls
alone in the midst of them all.
I cry
I weep
and scream
silently into the night
but no one ever hears.
...can they?
Because for whatever reason
they never call back.
This feeling that is overpowering me
reconstructing me all over again
when I thought it wasn't possible
what is going on
what is wrong with me
these shivers going down my spine
every time I try to imagine having you near me
how can I ever express these hidden surprises without seeing your face
I can barely imagine how it'd be my life without you again
this crunch in my chest
how can I pretend not to care
when I promised myself to look another way
yet here I am drowning once again
breaking the walls of my abstinence for you
How can I say this
there's just nothing more
but to simply say it
I love you
and truthfully